6 Months..

Happy 1/2 Birthday little buddy!

It has been amazing to watch you grow over the past 6 months. You just soak up everything you can each and every day.

After we love your sister, I wasn't sure we would ever have another baby. When I found out I was pregnant with you so soon after Adalyn returned to heaven, I was so shocked and afraid! What if we lost another baby? Could my heart survive that?

Now that time has passed, and we have been in our lives...I know that you are exactly what our broken hearts needed.

Shout out to our lovely friend Kara for the balloon!

You have brought such happiness with you in such a small body! Your laugh always melts my heart. You love to smile and giggle!

I love how you adore being outside. I love that when you get really excited, your arms and legs go wild. I love that you are my little best friend each day. I love your love of dance parties with Daddy and I. You think we are the funniest ever! (Just keep thinking that kiddo...) Your binkie has still has your heart, and you are getting more and more coordinated in putting it back in your mouth!

You are a mover. Constantly. Even in your sleep! I love hearing you jabber away in the mornings when you wake up. On the mornings when you wake up far too early....and I try to convince you to keep sleeping by pulling you on the bed with me, and closing my eyes...and you respond by smacking my face, and continuing to jabber...I secretly can't help but be so grateful you are mine. 

You are a lover of fruits. So so much. You tolerate veggies...but I have a feeling you are going to have my sweet tooth. You are still a champ at rolling only one way. You still have no interest of rolling from your tummy to your back.  Instead....you are attempting to crawl. So far, you successfully stick your bottom in the air and can get on your knees...which often results in face planting into the carpet.

Look at those leg rolls! Be still my heart...

Grandpa teaches all the best things..

You popped two teeth through this past week! Thank goodness! You were a rather grumpy grumpster there for a while.

Cute outfit courtesy of our dear friends the Grafs! Clovers..courtesy of Daddy

We adore you Camon. We love your expressive personality. Your long, luscious locks of hair. Your bright blue eyes...Most of all...we love your loving heart. We feel so lucky to have a link to heaven in you. A link that reminds us each day of the loving sister that you have. At times when you stare off and smile, I like to think she is close by, giving you a reason to smile!

6 months is a big deal buddy. Because of your sister, we count each "monthie" as a gift! When Adalyn turned 6 months, we threw her a little party. We thought you deserved the same! And though you can't have cake yet, we are going to give you the next best thing this evening...some pureed fruit!

I hope you always know how special you are. How loved you are.... And how you are always, always watched over by your angel sister. Thank you for giving us purpose again. Thank you for letting me realize that a broken heart is still capable of loving so very immensely. 

XO,

Mommy

P.S...I thought it fitting to include some pictures of your sister from this day 2 years ago...and some from her half birthday party! Goodness how we miss her!  I adore that she and Daddy have the same "Brown Frown"

I adore this picture so much. The famous Brown Frown!

Because of You

Happy Birthday my sweet Adalyn Grace!

How is it possible that you are 2 already?

Every part of me sure wishes that we could have spent the day watching you run around and play...getting messy cake and ice cream finger prints over everything you touched. What I would give to see your dark hair, bright blue eyes and smiling face!

We didn't want to spend the day being sad.. Though, I'll be honest here...I did shed a number of tears. Instead, we had a party to celebrate you. To celebrate the day you came into our world....and all of the ways you have changed our lives. The day you were born was incredibly special. That day, I saw firsthand that miracles are real.

I wanted to let you know a few of the many beautiful gifts that came into our lives because of you.

Because of you:

• I learned what it felt like to become a mother.
• I learned to pray hard....desperately, sincerely, frustratingly..and eventually....humbly.
• I felt what the scripture "Perfect love casteth out fear" meant. The moment you were born and I heard that perfect cry, my fears went right out the door.  I was absolutely encompassed in love. Love for your Daddy. Love for God. Most of all...love for you.
• I learned that the purest strength lies in the heart of babies like you.
• I realized that physical disabilites cannot restrain the ability of the spirit to love...Goodness how your love was so strong!
• I was taught to focus on the moment I was in. I clung to moments of feeling your softness in my arms....To lavender scented baths...walks in the park...and your sleepy sighs. 
• I learned to fight for the ones you love the most, even when all seems to be against you. 
• I learned it was possible to feel depths of love that words could never fully describe. 

I realized that hope isn't just a passive belief, it becomes a rod that one holds to desperately.

Giving you back into the arms of angels is the absolute hardest thing my heart has ever endured.... Even so Adalyn, I would never take back one second of our time with  you. I could go on forever on all of the ways your beautiful life has changed me.

Because of you, I have been changed for the better. I like to hope that I am a better mother for Camon because of you.

So until we can celebrate with you....

Happy Birthday my darling! You are the bravest, most graceful, loving and noble soul that I have ever known. How lucky I feel to have held heaven in my arms!

I hope that today you felt how much and how deeply you are loved.

I continue to see you in every soft sunset. Every warm breeze. Every simple, quiet moment. Every stare into Camon's big blue eyes. I miss you Addie baby, so very very much.

 XO,

Mommy

We had a fairy party for you sweet babe, I like to think you and your angel friends stopped by!

Camon sure had fun celebrating too!

But his fist is still 

We sent off balloons and sang you Happy Birthday! You are so loved!